Monday, September 27, 2010

Inspiration

The problem with school is that I am writing for school.  I am not writing for myself and therefore all my creative thoughts and magical tingly inspiration writing is on hiatus.  If I were not worrying about writing an intriguing, well-written, thought provoking, impressive one-pager for tonight I would instead being writing about a murder of crows.  

My husband and I like to take walks, find a nice segment of wildlife or some sort of nature and sit and observe. These are usually my most inspirational moments.  Bees copulating, ants swarming and killing a moth to then pull out it's eggs for dinner, crows playing musical chairs in the tree tops.  These are things that I can watch and at the same time let my mind wonder through storyline and characters.  We literally sat for over an hour one picnic watching ants take crumbs of baguette to their colonies.  

I am inspired by animals' actions and if there is any correspondence to humans.  I like to sit and watch people and make up their life stories.  One of my other favorite games is to "talk" for people that you can see but can't hear.  It is much better when you have someone playing this game with you.  

I love cemeteries for quiet.
I love the library for people's movements.
I love the grocery store for interaction.  

I am always inspired by reading.  I love voices and language style.  If I listen to a well-read audio book I will usually talk like the reader for a while without meaning to.  

But when it comes to writing for school- I am not inspired.  I am motivated.  These are two very distinct concepts.  Inspiration is emotional, flighty, unpredictable and for me.  Motivation is driven by my desire for good grades.  




2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Jackie,

I think the distinction you make between inspiration and motivation is such an important one. If only the two could be combined...The difficulty for teachers is with the students who cannot find either of these. : ) I like the interesting list you made of places for inspiration. It makes me want to go to the library and just watch.

Amie

Unknown said...

So my dad owns a monument shop and so I spent a lot of time in cemeteries when I was younger and find the same inspiration. It is so quiet, so calm, it is like nothing that you can find anywhere in the world. I always used to go there to write music when I was in high school, and I still go there when I need to talk a walk.

I also find myself watching animals when I need a moment to step outside of myself. This morning I was reading and saw a wasp on my window and was thinking about how he can have two legs on the window with all of his other legs whirling about him and stay there with wind and all...very interesting to watch!